Anger

Tahu tak apa maksud "is not something to be proud of" dan "everything has its own risk"???
kalau tahu mesti paham kehidupan dunia kan....to tell you their story, I have to tell you MINE..

I am ENGAGED that involve with someone's HUSBAND..So? why is it so bother you guys?? I take my own risk..And I bear all the consequences...My intention is to know how is it feel to be CRUEL...If Im wrong then let me learn MY lesson..I dont really need all those nonsense right now..At least Im not shame to admit my mistakes..DID YOU? I bet you "always right"..

Aniway, at first it was just a PLAN to destroy SOMEONE..I dun give a damn what the effect(s)..Ruining his marriage WASNT my intention at all..but it just went smooth with the plan..the plan that I PLANNED from the beginning..

So it almost 3 months already..this are all the risks that I need to FACE *just for info---comment are not needed here--up to you with all the speculations*
The risks:

1. his in love with me...--which I dunno how true it might be..result=its OKAY
2. his wife found out...--totally not in my list of plan...it just happened= its OKAY
3. I started to feel "love"..--which something that REALLY need DEEP CONSIDERATION= still OKAY
4. they breaking-up...still not 100% sure..but there is rumors..so let it be= its OKAY
5. I have something that comes from HIM..--Which I still consider to destroy or keep=its OKAY
* that's all what happened..tak la banyak pon..but still something..

if you guys can think out of the box, maybe I am his karma..?? the fate stated it is ME who will make him learned his lesson..or maybe, my lesson? Think people think...

I never say I am GOOD..neither that BAD..but yes..my way of life is A LOT different from you guys..so dun JUDGES..you are not in my shoes..anyway, I thank you guys for the advices..

okay, the breaking news is his wife are to get a baby GIRL in 4 months time..after what she said to me..(bitch..slut...perampas laki orang, perempuan murahan..etc...i forgot most of the nonsense)..So I LOVE HIM..??takkan nak tipu diri sendiri..tolong la...gle pathethic..lebih baik mengaku..pekung di dada korang tu pon ade gak...just you guys prefer to make it P&C..so please respect MINE.

Aniway, am thinking of the solutions..GET AWAY from the nonsense! bukan tak pernah try..bnyak kali dah try..dah sehabis baik berterus terang da..its not under my control that he loves me..KAN?

I bleh je angkat kaki ble2..n aku memang tak kisah pon asyik terluka...aku kan HATI KERING..ape de hal?!...ape2 pon aku still hidup kot sampai skang..

tahu tak ape yang lebih baik dari mengata orang?---ape kate DOAKAN orang tu sejahtera, bahagia, selamat...etc..ape2 yang baik la...kan korang pon dapat pahala? apela...kalau perempuan MURAH macam aku nie bleh pikir macam tu, PEREMPUAN BAIK macam korang takkan takleh fikir yang lebih bijak..tolong akal atas kepala..bukan dekat bontot atau lutut..THINK!

adios! sorry....emotional tak stabil...aniway, aku dah memang camnie..suke terima..tak suke, PLEASE FUCK OFF!

SAlammmss